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… from the Angels

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My dear friends, we love you so very much. This week we ask you to embrace the kindness that you find within your own hearts. We ask you in even the most difficult of situations to choose love. For example, suppose someone cuts you off in traffic, misunderstands you, or steps on your toe. Can you choose to first honor your own feelings, and then to forgive and offer compassion to the other? This is the higher road and the one that will give you peace in the times of change that lie ahead. You will be asked this year to find respect for many various perspectives on this earth, to choose the higher road, and in so doing to find bliss amidst chaos. You will discover ever more deeply that as you choose love, instead of unforgiveness, you will find within yourself the divine presence of God as God wishes to be expressed through you.

God wants to embrace all perspectives, dear ones, and have them live in harmony. If everyone were honest with themselves first and then each other, nations would rearrange themselves. People of like mind and heart would stop wasting their time judging others and find solace and joy in each other’s company. Relationships would sort themselves out with respect and compassion. Far from causing you to simply ‘put up’ with those company you don’t enjoy, true love would admit that you want different company and simply move you in that direction. True love doesn’t judge, doesn’t hate, doesn’t resent. True love comes from a heart that overflows with the awareness of God’s unconditional love for you.

Dear ones, practice kindness, respect, non-judgement. Your world is in need of those who exemplify these qualities and when you practice them it in these moments that you will feel very much at one with God and in harmony with his creation expressed through you.

God bless you all. We love you so very much.

– The Angels

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… from Ann

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Hi All,

This message was meant for me too. I’ve been praying to learn to love those who are difficult — for example the person who tailgated me so close at 75 mph on the freeway that he had to brake and weave back and forth to avoid hitting me, the person that scowls at me when I say a cheerful hello, and the one who inconsiderately rams into me with a shopping cart. I’m not too great at this lately. I’ve been feeling these pretty intense energies and it’s all I can do at times to maintain even keel. I’m trying to take the higher road each day and not slip into anger at those who practice careless and thoughtless behavior that affects my life.

I experienced the tailgater in traffic last week. I wasn’t in a very compassionate space because I was tired, and I was frustrated, trying to understand how God could expect me to feel good about someone who was so clearly endangering my life. The angels who, with me, are quite the loving but tough taskmasters gave me this response:

"Dear Ann, either you trust God to keep you alive on this planet or you don’t. Fear is not an excuse to stop loving. We understand that you wish for everyone on this planet to be kind, compassionate, considerate, and loving but the truth of the matter is some are not there. The ones who aren’t are in even greater need of your love. This one in traffic behind you is angry, frustrated, harried, and hurried. If a client came to you in this state, or a friend, wouldn’t you fall in love and try to offer them kindness?"

Got it I am still a work in progress as we all are I find also that it is much easier to be kind on the days when I’ve been kind to myself. It is much easier to love when I’ve taken care of my own basic needs. The angels say this year is going to be quite exciting in terms of God stirring up the pot to bring human hearts to the surface, so I think its important for all of us to take care of ourselves and be kind to ourselves so we can be more loving. As one of the angels once told me, "Ann don’t see the reward of being loved in return. Seek the reward in the loving." So true.

I love you and feel blessed to share this journey with you all,

Ann

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… from Jacqueline

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About a week ago I stirred the pot by confronting a girlfriend with the statement:

"Ask yourself who you can count on and who counts on you… My heart is not aligned with being disrespected or disrespectful. On those lines, I just want you to know that I can’t count on you to show up when you say you will… When you think you’re ready to be a friend that I can count on, let me know. Namaste."

I said it from the space of "what’s so" and tried my best to separate the offending action from love and forgiveness for my friend. It wasn’t my intention to be hurtful or mean. In her inner reflection, I knew that she would recognize that I love her. It showed up last night when she invited me to meet her for dinner and arrived on time. Small steps to major changes…

The beauty of this playground is that we each have the power to create. I have been taking ownership of the fact that no one else makes me feel angry, inferior, walked over or disrespected unless I allow it. I have been doing my best to speak my truth when my boundaries feel violated. I am beginning to see noticeable results.

My physical body’s reaction has been positive. My back typically hardly moves for my massage therapist, practically needing a rolling pin (her forearms, elbows and knees) to soften up the muscles. We have an ongoing joke that I’m like Pinocchio, "I’m not made out of wood. I’m a REAL girl!" Whereas she usually has to concentrate deep tissue on my knotted neck and shoulders only, yesterday my arms and legs screamed delight when they got some attention too. It’s a start!

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It’s a beautiful thread in the Universe that I can’t quite explain, this Love.  I was driving to meet my parents for dinner last night while chatting on the phone with a friend in California.  In the physical realm, we could count the times we’ve had to hang out together in the past few years on one hand.  Yet the sporadic times we do catch each other to talk, I am completely assured that we have been true twin flames for lifetimes.  When I hung up, I was almost moved to tears by an overwhelming, wonderful feeling of being 100% understood and "gotten" for exactly who I am.

One of my co-workers recently had a bad experience with her teenage son surfing the web.  He made some of the "wrong" kind of friends and quit going to high school.  She condemned this Internet community as a horrible place, full of treachery.  And yet, I find it to be a Universal community of Love.  There are so many people that I have spiritually connected with, never having to hug them face to face to know that we are part of a single Humanity.  (You know who you are!!!)

Sometimes it feels surreal, like I am an alien.  I would send a plane ticket to a fellow alien across the country to follow a dream in a heartbeat.  Then there are those that I see day to day that only scratch the top layer of me, never baring any soul or heart of themselves, that I would hardly do minor favors for.  It’s weird.  It makes me believe that this physical world is overrated… or maybe I just need to find the means to hang out with those that I find that special connection with, regardless of space or distance.

I was reminded recently of a story that happened years ago.  My best girlfriend at the time coerced me into taking a vacation to the Bahamas.  She invited another friend of ours from San Diego and checked flights.  I traded a time share to get a condo at the local yacht club.  It was my first adventure towards Miami!

Another mutual friend who couldn’t go with us confided in me before the trip that he had given my best friend a couple hundred dollars so that we could have a nice sushi dinner while we were there, knowing that we loved sushi and were on tight budgets.  It was supposed to be a surprise, but he couldn’t stop himself from telling me.  I was excited!  The good intention unraveled, however, as I patiently waited 8 days for an invitation to dinner that never materialized.  The whole time we were there, I never let on that I knew about the sushi dinner. 

We made it all the way back to Los Angeles, and I was pretty peeved.  On the last day before I was leaving, I confronted my best friend.  Not only was there this issue about the surprise, but she had started waffling about the $75 that I asked her for the room.  I had covered the condo and only asked her for $75 for the week.  It could easily have been $75 a day. 

Somehow, in the whole ordeal of her crying and feeling bad, the cards shifted and suddenly I was assigned to be the guilty party because "how could I think such bad things about her?!"  It was all a misunderstanding.  It was my fault for being a horrible friend that I didn’t get that it was a misunderstanding.  How could I say nothing to her for 8 days and silently wonder terrible guesses on why there was no dinner?

I caved into my weaknesses at the time and bore the burden of guilt.  We remained friends for years after that, albeit strained.  It finally came to an end after she insisted that I cancel all my Memorial Day plans because she wanted to visit Phoenix. 

I told my girlfriends here that she was coming to town and we planned a killer girls’ night out.  I called and called to iron out details with her.  No return calls.  We waited and waited for hours after we had scheduled to go to dinner with everyone for her to arrive.  She never showed up.  I finally got her on the phone after 9 PM.  She was feeling sick and still at home in California.  Was she going to bother to let us know?

Somehow, the cards shifted and once again I was to be the guilty ogre because, "How can you be so mad at me when I couldn’t call because I’m in bed sick and was sleeping?!"  She accused me of entrapment, that I was always setting her up for failure and then giving her crap for not meeting expectations.  This time I didn’t take the bait. 

It’s kind of like the book "He’s Just Not That Into You" applies just as equally to ALL relationships, whether they be intimate partners, friends, or business.  Why would you allow your self-worth be minimized by constantly laying down for the selfishness and standards of someone else, that doesn’t work with yours?  Why sit at home by the phone?  Why buy all the excuses?

The rest of us still went out that night and had a blast. 

Sometimes I have to keep reminding myself that it’s okay to leave the house and not wait.  We’ve all got cell phones and can be reached 24/7.  "I didn’t get a chance to call…"  Well, I think we all know better. 

Misunderstandings between good friends happen every once in a while, but not ALL the time.  Every example I had of our "misunderstandings" turned out to be different, and yet so suspiciously the same.  They’re not quite misunderstandings when they happen so often… but more like habits, aren’t they?

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… from the Angels

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My dear friends, we love you so very much. Many of you have expressed your weariness unto the heavens and we do understand. Earth is a school and a tough one where you strive to express love in both the light and the dark. Sometimes the energies are refined and beautiful and, at other times such as these, the energies seem heavy, dense, and create within each one of you a bit of sluggishness. Take heart, dear ones, God is simply working constantly to bring to the surface all that has remained hidden within you.

When you find yourselves tired, your truth comes to the surface more easily because you don’t have the energy to pretend otherwise. The priorities of your heart emerge, sometimes as glorious inspiration, and sometimes through recognition of deep frustrations. When you find yourselves weary, all that is not truly of value drops away and you go back to basics, back to wanting to love and be loved. Dear ones, these energies are dense at this time on your planet but there is nothing to fear. You are growing, getting clear, finding your hearts, and deciding this year what truly matters to you. Bring that to the surface. Share it before God and yourself and then with the world. No longer hide your hearts, dear friends, but expose them.

When you share your dreams with others, God can work through them to help you. When you share your fears, God can work through others to comfort you. When you share your longings, God can send those to commiserate with you. When you hide your hearts, your beautiful, sweet, and loving hearts, how can you expect the world to fall in love with the truth of you? Bring your innermost dreams to the surface and share them, dear ones. Say to a friend, "You know this may sound silly but I’ve always wanted to… sometime this lifetime." Goodness knows the one you feel motivated to share this with might be the very one who can help you out.

God is waiting to help you fulfill your dreams, dear ones, but you do not live in a vacuum. You live on a planet where God expresses love through all of creation, including humankind. Set aside your fears of sharing your dreams and share them. Some will support you. Some will ridicule you. What does it matter? Your dreams were planted in your hearts by God himself and so if God finds these dreams to be worthy of love, so can you.

God bless you all. We love you so very much.

– The Angels

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… from Ann

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Hi All,

The angel message reminds me of a story from the days when I used to work in engineering. I remember being TERRIFIED the day I decided to turn in my resignation. I had been praying for over a year to know when to quit, what to do next, and to have this be SO obvious that I couldn’t miss when it was time. I didn’t miss. I heard voices outside my head for once telling me to "Turn in your resignation tomorrow." I’d been saving all my overtime money and when I looked in the account I had exactly $100 more than I thought I’d need to quit. I wrote my letter of resignation, turned it in and admitted to hundreds of avionics engineers that I wanted to quit to heal with energy and write books. (God hadn’t informed me I’d be talking to angels yet!) I was scared STIFF to find out what everyone would think. They DID raise their eyebrows. They wanted explanations. For once I didn’t get defensive or justify anything. I just came from my heart and confessed my closet interests and how important it was for me to try to pursue a dream. I quoted frequently, "Better to have tried and failed, than not to try at all."

And then one older engineering manager, looked me in the eye and confessed that he had always wanted to be a storyteller. I nearly fell over. I couldn’t believe it. A man whose mind I had seen but whose heart had remained an enigma suddenly became human in front of my eyes. I saw why he went on and on in meetings! It was a hidden talent under different circumstances to "talk story"! I told him I thought that was completely cool. He replied, "Who knows, maybe someday." A week later I was reading a magazine and to my amazement saw a blurb on a National Storytellers Association. I clipped the article and gave it to him. He signed up for their convention and began to pursue his dream.

You never know what might come of sharing your dream with someone. As the angels say, somedays you meet angels. Some day you play angel. God works in wondrous ways when we bring our hearts to the surface and share them without shame. At the risk of sounding bawdy… bare it all! Your hearts I mean!!!

Love you! Have a great week

Ann

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… from Jacqueline

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Exactly a year ago I was here at Enchantment Resort in Sedona, sharing with everyone a dream that I had:

"Jacqueline Luk declares that she has an intention to commit her talents and skills to Fast 4 Kids on a full-time basis as soon as possible.  She has communicated to her employment, family, and friends that she will be transitioning her career focus to supporting the non-profit as a staff member."

From that single email that went out, and the amazing conversations that it spawned, so many people and wonderful opportunities showed up last year to help me BE the movement behind Fast 4 Kids and helping kids with cancer.  It was a huge experience for me.

Yesterday I was musing at the vortex and asking the ancient red rock, "What outrageous craziness will I be inspired to be this year?" 

The reply was a quiet one, "Restoration begins with REST.  Calm.  Silence.  Solitude.  Peace.  Meditation.  There is no craziness.  There is no doing.  There is no meaningless purpose to follow.  You know this.  Now it’s time to practice it."

And so it is.  Namaste 

Together making a difference,

Jacqueline

An Email from Rev Marian Fortner while on the front lines with St. Patrick’s Episcopal Church in Long Beach, Mississippi:

"It’s about 5 PM and I am sitting here with Lynn Hart after our second day on the job and things are winding down for the day. We are in a gym with cots lining the floors about 1 foot apart. Don’t talk to me about snoring…

Actually, it is not a bad set up at all. The camp is so well organized that everyone acclimates quickly. There are jobs for everyone: I’ve done parking for 2 days; Joan has done registration; Nancy, Lynn and Georgia-the-personal-shopper have done clothing and food. Others have gone out on work sites. Their time is spent inland on houses that were flooded, damaged by the wind, but still standing. They pull out drywall mostly.

Several of us rode down the beach at noon today towards Gulfport. We were in awe of the power of the hurricane. We saw cars in swimming pools, slabs of large beachfront homes, entire apartment complexes gutted to the steel pilings. A couple days ago, I saw a house sitting on the railroad tracks. It is surreal.

Tomorrow we will have Eucharist with the parishioners of St. Patrick’s, who have been holding services at the camp. We will give them the check we brought for $2300. It is so needed. Pat Hoyt has been working in the medical clinic and said they were having to do a lot of substitutions on drugs. With money donated by people at the camp, we made a run to Walmart to buy basics — cough syrup, soap for head lice, lip balm and other items — so the tent would be stocked for Monday.

Stories abound. In the parking lot I saw all kinds of faces: weathered and beaten, young and old, black, white and asian, seemingly affluent and dirt poor. We parked Cadillacs and clunkers and lots of F-150s. One tough piece today was that the medical tent was closed until Monday. We sent away a woman seeking prenatal care, a man with a bad bug bite on his head, a grandmother with a child in a neckbrace who had been in an accident the day before.

We turned away people fighting colds and one person who would have to make do on her asthma medicine until Monday. Another had stepped on a rusty nail and needed a tetanus shot. When we think about the ones we turned away, it only goes to show how great the service is when the clinic is open. By and large, the people we have seen are resilient and surprisingly optimistic.

We have met people from New York, Pennsylvania, North Carolina and Minnesota. Most of the volunteers have gray hair. I’d say our group is about average in terms of our ages.

God’s peace,

Marian

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… from the Angels

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"My dear friends, we love you so very much. Understand you are in a time of great change, both within your own hearts and upon your planet earth. The truth of YOU is coming to the surface and you are wanting changes, both large and small, within your own lives. You are wanting to realize your dreams here upon the earth and you are wanting to take charge of your existence as never before.

Taking charge, dear ones, is not the same as taking control! Truly God is in control but you can take charge of your existence by first admitting your hopes and dreams to God and to the people here upon your earth who will accept and support them. If you have close friends, share your dreams with them. If not, find a coach who can help you. If not that, go out in nature and pray your dreams out loud. This is the first step in taking charge of your existence - to become honest enough with yourself, God, and the universe, to kindly admit what it is you want in life, whether it is simply more time to rest, to be treated more kindly, to create friendships, or to help children keep from starving. Trust whatever you find inside of YOU is what God has put inside of you. The desires within, the true deep ones that come without explanation or justification, are from God.

Secondly pray to be motivated to take action when it is time and trust, trust, trust that you will actually FEEL like doing what you are guided to do. The ideas will appeal to you. You may have to overcome some doubt, inertia, or programming but you WILL find that what you are guided to is actually something that sounds enticing, interesting, or exciting. When something pops into your mind that is interesting or enticing, DO IT. This may sound simple but we understand it is not. You may wake up with the idea to call an old friend, share a hope with them and find they have a connection. You may be motivated to forgive someone to free up your financial flow. Although things may not seem related to your hopes and dreams, trust, if you are impulsed do something it IS indeed on your path.

LIfe can become a joyful dance with God and the universe, an adventure of discovering what you can create. Take charge of your lives, dear ones. Act as if you truly ARE supported by God, for indeed you are. Act as if you truly ARE in support of yourselves. If you want more time to pursue a hobby, make time. If you want more down time, turn the phone off. If you want to be more generous, start with what you can. If you want to help others but can barely help yourself, start with small kindnesses. If you want a house, look at homes even before you can afford them. If you want love, be kind. There are a million small choices you can make each and every day consistent with your hopes and dreams. Appreciate all you have, ask for what you want, and allow life to become the joyful adventure of growth and education that it was intended to be.

We love you so very much.

– The Angels"

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… from Ann

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Hi All,

As always, I need to listen to the angels words! I’ve been driving myself nutty trying to pick paint colors for the outside of my house since its time to attend to that. My true colors are so bright my house would look out of place in this neighborhood and I’d really like to look like I fit in. "Sound familiar?" the angels asked me. They tell me I’m toning myself down and, although I might pick a more subdued paint, it’s time to stop toning my words, my actions, and everything else about me down this year. "It’s time," they said, "to set your soul on fire."

"Get to work, Ann," they tell me. "Your heart wants to write. Write. You want to paint? Paint!" And so forth. So for me this is the year of ‘no excuses.’ I’m standing in integrity with myself this year, and although it seems nearly impossible to fit in all that I want, it is actually working so far!

When you’re making your heart a priority, suddenly there IS time for all you need to do as well

Love you all,

Ann

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… from Jacqueline

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On Monday night, I had dinner with my friend and coach Steven Ringelstein (www.itswhoimcoaching.com) and had a "2005 in review" completion conversation. Last year I pushed my every ounce of soul and spirit to be of service to the Universe, until I was exhausted and completely used up. Even though I had worked so hard to create it, I found that this life of service I was living wasn’t where my true heart had peace and joy. I had forgotten to include "being of service to Jacqueline" in the mix, and the first things that I chose to sacrifice were all those important for my welfare… skipping meals, staying up late and getting little solid rest, replacing yoga/gym time with committee meetings…

This week the angels remind us, "Act as if you truly ARE in support of yourselves. If you want more down time, turn the phone off. If you want to help others but can barely help yourself, start with small kindnesses."

I have my ringer on silent almost all the time now. The first day I tried it, I nearly went nuts thinking I would miss THE CALL of a lifetime if I didn’t answer on the first ring. I missed 58 calls, but in actuality none were super important. So now instead of constantly being interrupted throughout the day, I answer all messages and call back when it is convenient to me.

Steven asked me if I had made a 2006 plan for my intention of SOLITUDE, scheduling in ME time. I sighed, "My calendar is completely booked."

"Who sets your calendar?!" he pushed. The angels have been helping me by canceling things off my calendar that my heart didnt’ really want to attend. I had three evening dinners/meetings this week not work out for one reason or another. Although I would have liked to visit with people, in the end I really appreciated being home and getting to bed early. The quiet has been SO nice!

The next three weekends I have blocked off for ME…

Today I’ve got plans for healing therapy (maybe some reiki too), deep tissue massage, and a haircut.

Next weekend I’m at my all-time FAVORITE spa, Mii Amo at Enchantment Resort in Sedona. I think some hot rock, yoga, meditation, and a facial are in order!

The last weekend of January I’m flying to the San Francisco Bay Area for Chinese New Year. I missed seeing my grandfather last year and am excited to be able to ring in the Year of the Dog with him in Oakland Chinatown.

What does YOUR heart want??? Drop me a line and fill me in. I’m curious what 2006 has in store for YOU! Namaste

Together making a difference,

Jacqueline

My mom bought me one of those flip calendars that has a different quote every day.  I forgot to flip this morning, so when I got home I went to today…  "If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa

I immediately thought of my girlfriend who has a New Year’s resolution of being less judgmental.  Every time I notice that she’s off on a crazy tangent and making up a story based on an assumption full of judgment… well, yup, I’m judging her too. 

It’s so hard sometimes to be a Petite Goddess of Unifying Love and REALLY wear the shoes.  Namaste 

Some of you may know that through my church I have been supporting Hurricane Katrina relief in Mississippi over the past few months.  All Saints’ Episcopal Church has collected Walmart and Lowe’s gift cards to distribute to families in need, as well as sent volunteer crews out to help.  We are now accepting prayers and monetary donations for work tools for the current trip.  This month our crew of 13 from All Saints’ has gone to Camp Coast Care in Long Beach, Mississippi.  The group will do the "heavy lifting" while they are there, then donate all the materials and tools to the folks in Mississippi for their continued labors.  Please keep them in your prayers.  We’ll report more upon their return.

An email from Rector, Father David Knight:

"First of all, I must say how amazed I continue to be by the support of so many people all over this continent. The generosity and deep concern of our supporters has been what has helped us survive to this point. Thank you all for all you do.

Many of you have helped us through the relief center and medical clinic at Camp Coast Care (www.campcoastcare.com). Tens of thousands of people have been served through that center, which will continue to provide food and clothing, as well as clean up support in our area. Each day work crews are sent out, they have literally cleaned up hundreds of yards and homes. Eventually this effort will move to more of a rebuilding project, and we will continue to house hundreds of volunteers to support that work. See the website above and the website for our diocese, www.dioms.org, for more information on how to help.

The medical clinic will hopefully move to Coastal Family Health clinic, which my wife Jennifer, who is the leader of our free clinic, is assisting to set up with a medical trailer and staffing in Long Beach near a FEMA trailer park and our relief center. It is important for us to move folks back into the medical community as doctors come back online.

We continue to try and gather as much information as possible regarding our options for rebuilding. We have looked at some temporary worship buildings. We are very anxious to make some progress, but it is slow going. We need as much factual information as possible regarding requirements to rebuild on our beach location, if we should so choose.

Many of our folks will of course be drawn to return there. Others are in favor of moving north of the beach. What I have promised the Parish is we will, as a group, talk about these things, answer questions, and allow people to speak their minds. Following that time together, tentatively planned for January 28, the Vestry will enter a process of prayerfully discerning where God would have us go.

We are four months post storm. Our folks continue to progress, although many have days where they are just as lost as they were August 29. Many are now receiving bad news from their insurance companies. The future is very uncertain. Areas of Long Beach and Pass Christian still look like a bomb went off (including our church site). Some days despair wins, others we are able to fight through it. I still believe we will make it because of people like you who are continuing to help us. It is what gives me hope.

I encourage you to visit our website, www.stpatricks.dioms.org. You will get more information on us and you can even listen to sermons (if you are really bored). The one from today talks about our rebuilding and the need for prayer. We are in a crucial time of discernment, all the while still in recovery mode. It will be a long haul. Thank you for being part of it.

God bless you all."

What was your answer to the question, "What are you doing for New Year’s Eve?"

The only real plan that I knew I wanted for certain was to be at the 7 PM Sanctuary of the Soul service at Unity of Phoenix (www.unityphx.org). Before all the horn blowing, Auld Lang Syne, and champagne, I couldn’t think of a nicer way to let go of 2005 and set an intention for 2006.

"I am opening up in sweet surrender to the luminous love light of the One."

Surrender has been a major point of resistance for me throughout the year, as funny as that may sound! I struggled with clinging onto projects where I was too attached to the results, forgetting that the process and the journey are where the heart and the lesson blossom. This showed up with great force at the end of 2005, with so many unexpected events thrown my way that I felt completely at a loss of where to turn. So I turned inward, asking Spirit for peace and comfort. Although it was out of character to my friends and loved ones, I did not want to be with people or social. I took time by myself to clear the clutter in my physical, mental, and emotional space.

To affirm this choice of action, the intention stone I pulled out of the blessed purple bags at Unity this year is SOLITUDE. The angels made sure that there would be no question that I had received the right and perfect stone by matching it EXACTLY with the color of the shirt that I wore to service! They were giggling around me, I’m sure ;)~

"I am opening up in sweet surrender to the luminous love light of the One."

I am opening up to putting myself first, when otherwise I would have used up every ounce of my being for service to others, leaving little to no energy for my personal needs.  I considered it selfish to not give all that I am when my life is full of abundance.

However, my friend Bill Krenz advised me recently, "A lot has happened to you in a short period of time. That’s the price for being high driven. Your spirit has given you signs to slow down. Your contribution to this world does make a difference, but if you don’t take of yourself you will not be able to contribute more to our world. Dedication is a lifetime effort, so look at your efforts as a lifetime commitment."

And so it is. Amen.